Moon, mother, home, nest, roots. Let's talk about right timing and how the concept relates to this Full Moon/Lunar Eclipse in Leo and the Law of Attraction.
Taurus, Leo, Scorpio and Aquarius form the fixed cross in astrology. In the fixed signs we want to hold on to the status quo, "No thanks, I like things just the way they are, why change?"
Know too, if you set a strong intention at the Leo New Moon, expect results at this Leo Full Moon. EXCEPT the first challenge to that great intention likely showed up quite strongly at the Scorpio New Moon. That's when you found yourself kicking and screaming.
To serve in a healthy way there is a need to know thyself in the Fixed signs. It’s a four step process:
- I know my true value (Taurus) and self worth. Abundance issues related to you making the money. Poverty consciousness.
- I am brilliant and creative, I can let others shine as well (Leo). I live my passion.
- I let go, I know how to surrender what isn’t working for me in my day-to-day routines (Scorpio).
- I am unique, I serve through my original gifts and talents. (Aquarius).
Today we have a full moon/lunar eclipse in Leo. Full moons bring a release of energy, it may be related to a choice, project or issue that happened at the New Moon in Leo six months ago*; for good or bad depending on what you were thinking- consciously or unconsciously.
We sold the Plantation house and bought the new house in Vero at the Leo New Moon six months ago. Back then I was surrounded by boxes, new faces and places. I thought this would be easy, boy was I wrong. Last September at the Pisces Full Moon I wrote:
Saturn is still moving through Virgo in the 10th house [opposing my Sun in Pisces] and Uranus in Pisces is now sitting directly on my Sun in the 4th house of home, roots and family. Going from liberal South Florida to more conservative rural central Florida was so in my face by the November elections. Sure enough by the Scorpio New Moon I found myself yet again surrounded by old demons, inner fears and doubt. Pinhead showed up mighty strong. What have you done to yourself?!
Moving into the new house, we 'planned' to renovate right away. I went about designing and drawing up construction drawings, gathered materials, did estimates, got bids on the work. Rather than procrastinating I was so proud of myself for jumping right in. Then the stock market did it's spiral. Money contracted, we contracted and stopped the renovation process.
The project and my creative life went into a holding pattern.
The whole dance left me frustrated -my studio was not set up. I still didn't know
where and when I was going to start teaching. No it made me pretty damn mad, and
by November between the 'no renovation' and being surrounded by so many Bush-ites [picture of people in Vero campaigning for McCain]. I was
spitting nails. I felt like a misfit all over again, of course the Sun was crossing my 1st
house, offering up a challenge to who and what I am about. And I know all this, but there is a difference between knowing and feeling it. One's a mind thing, the other a heart energy and in the end it doesn't really matter.
Keep in mind I am a woman who likes color, and everything in this new house is painted a bland boring off- not-quite-white... Benjamin Moore's Navajo white.
In order to paint the walls,
the trim needs to be replaced.
In order to
replace the trim,
popcorn ceilings need to go and
the old mismatched tile floor needs to be replaced.
In order to
replace the floors
the kitchen cabinets need to be gutted.
The soffit and lighting has to be removed.
Doorway shifted.
One thing leads to another. So each time my sweet dear husband says, 'let's just paint" I go into the renovation 'to-do' list in my head. Do we spend a little money to paint the 12- 25 foot walls and cathedral ceilings when I know it will be damaged later in the renovation? My interior self screams NO way. Just live with it in the present moment but hold the vision of where we want to go. It'll all work out.
I am grateful the previous owners never ever updated, of course that's why the house was so reasonable. Did I tell you we have a dusty rose cultured marble tub with a tacky mural that reminds me of Al Pacino's bubble bath scene in the movie Scarface.
The holding pattern I find myself in is weird, like I stepped into the Twilight Zone. Don't get me wrong the house is in good shape and livable. It's just not our style, and change is needed, especially to protect our investment.
Back to the Future:
By not renovating, I am now living in an 1980's incubator of sorts; thrown back in time to 1983 when this house was first built. After a great breathwork in December I realized the Universe is offering an opportunity. My anger is now replaced with acceptance and gratitude.
Houses come with a consciousness [why we would not buy a foreclosure]- the space brings with it the energy and spirit of the period in which they were built. Now I recognize I would have missed the gift if we had renovated the house right away.
This house takes me back to my 80's persona- leaving a secure job in interior design for the life of an entrepreneur, building the company I was faced with choices:
- of growing the company or getting a 'real job' in tough economic times.
- to move out of the house into a real office, can we afford it or not?
- to network and market my new business, be seen and be real.
- the emerging business woman's decision to have children or work
And here I am today living with the results of those choices, embracing an empty nest and reflecting on my professional self now and in the future. What do I want to create now?
Who
knew a new moon in Leo and a new house could offer up so much wisdom? Not
me.
The choices I made in the 80's meets the woman I am today as I walk from room to room.
The POD with all my artist and healing room goodies arrived last week [here is a snapshot of the living room, and thus no soulcollage card for today]. Like six months ago, with more awareness *smile*, I am surrounded by boxes- editing and sorting self and soul at this Leo Full moon. Taurus is just around the corner...
So how about you at the Full Moon/Lunar Eclipse in Leo?
What story does your house have to share?
What year was it built? I wonder.
*Then I read what April writes: Eclipses kick up ancient anthills and beg us to retrace our steps, to unravel the thread that connects similar moments in our lives. Look back, for instance, to 1984 and 1985; 1990; 1993 and 1994; and 2003. Where were you, what were you were doing, and what was important to you? You may remember creative breakthroughs,and how those breakthroughs were received by others; situations or relationships that brought you a gratifying sense of belonging, or painful moments when it felt you would never, ever fit in.
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