New Moon Journal

Michele pick up the rattle

Chiron is a wonderful planetary energy, when you tap into the Chironic energies; in essence you are dancing with the wound that causes most of the problems in your life. Those drama/traumas that get you when you least expect it. If reading this you hear yourself say “well the past is the past”, well then think again. The places where we hurt make us more human. As healers we are expected to understand the pain; your “blessed wound” is what makes you a healer in the first place. In your birth chart Chiron’s placement and journey through the chart gives you understanding of what is out of balance and how to go about fixing it.

It takes 49/50 years for Chiron travel round your birth chart-in astrology it’s called a Chiron Return. Each time Chiron enters a sign he brings the deeper message of your “blessed wound”. Chiron is a bridge builder…he builds a bridge from the personal planets (Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter, and Saturn) to the trans-personal planets (Neptune, Uranus, and Pluto).

“[This story is] for the children within us who knew there were nature spirits, shining ones and more and the children whose lives we touch. May we open our hearts to the compassion and love of the Spirit world.  May the joy of knowing we are supported be with us each and every day.”- Shamanic practitioner Elaine Egidio

June 2009: Chiron is now enjoined with Neptune and Jupiter at 26 degrees of Aquarius. Neptune rules dream time and the fog of our addictions- drinking, drugging, food, shopping, spending, rescuing, hoarding, etc.

How one chooses to numb out when their pain gets too intense…wound= pain. Jupiter represents the energy of the teacher, Jupiter asks us each to expand into new territory, take a risk. Aquarius represents an original thinker, someone who thinks outside the box.

Chiron = Blessed Wound
Jupiter = Teacher
Neptune = Addiction
Aquarius = Stepping outside the box, being weird because you are not the norm.

Can you see the dance here of these energies? At fifty I breathed a sigh of relief that Chiron was through with me. Whew what a ride!

Yet starting this past December at each quarter turn-solstice, equinox, solstice I am deepening my understanding of long standing issues and taking the healing to a new level of love and understanding. Has that been happening with you? I knew I was in something and riding the wave once again…being rubbed raw to become real. Last week I asked the question…

When was the last time Chiron was at 26° degrees of Aquarius? I looked at the charts last week and thought "oh @#$#!"

Spring of 1959-I was three years old, the time of my first official food binge. I ate so many carrots I turned orange (yes I have clear memory of this, I remember a lot of my childhood). It was also the time I saw my first vision (clear sight). It was also the time I came in from playing and innocently told my mother I was talking to my friends- the nature spirits and shining ones. Mom’s harsh reaction and response to my declaration, “don’t be silly, there are no such things” sent me into a deep silence of shame.

She knew...
before everyone else
she knew

As a child she heard
and felt things
In people
their homes
in places
she knew.

The Unexplainable and
just plain weird
the good and the bad
she took it on
she took it in
she looked at it
sometimes digested it
she knew

She didn't fit
She threw fits.
She felt weird.
Because

No one could explain
this part life to her.
How do you explain
the unexplainable?
She hid it well
kept this secret
for a very long time.

Years later, now a young woman
Dad left her house
She felt it in her bones
the pain of never seeing
her Daddy again.
She cried all day.
Weeks later
the boating accident
then the stroke.
He's never been the same since.
She knew

Sitting in the meeting
the urge to leave.
Her child was in trouble
could she be imagining things?
She rushed home to find
Little girl and sitter
locked out of the house
in a thunderstorm
for over an hour.
She unlocked the door
daughter scared for her life
leaped into her arms.
She knew.

Dreaming
she saw her sister
sick and ill.
she woke up crying
two months later
the truth is revealed
about the tumor.
She knew

Finally one day
she visits The Healer
filled with spirit, laughter and joy.
Who became the mentor, teacher and friend
Re-birthed her gift of knowing
breathing in the truth "I believe in me" and
"I forgive myself for not believing-
I know what I know."

And so began the journey
to be okay,
with the knowing.
That comes and goes
Flows like the Tides
She knows...

It's the nature of women to know, it's part of our sacred feminine mystery; the betwixt and between that is not taught. Our mothers, our grandmothers are wounded, and this soul loss is passed down generation upon generation...are you the one to say "enough is enough, I want to know again?" How did your mother travel the psychic waters of Knowing? How do you discount your own knowing?

Mom -Mars is sitting on my Chiron

The Sun enters Scorpio today, Tuesday October 23rd. It’s an intense time for everyone but especially for young adults (and their parents) born between the years 1989 and 1990. Mercury is retrograding in Scorpio. There’s a New Moon in Scorpio on November 9th. Mars the ruler of Scorpio is retrograding on November 15. You may hear your kid yelling- "Mom, Mars is sitting on my Chiron!"

Over the years I have spent a lot of time with children born between the years 1988-1990. In the mid 90’s I worked with wonderful children who expressed anger with such intensity it scared their mothers (their fathers weren’t present). I know about Indigo Children. I know what living with a Pluto in Scorpio (1984-95) child is about, I gave birth to Dear Daughter back in August of 1989.

Pluto is a transformational energy. Pluto in Scorpio¹⁾ represents an archetypal force of a generation born to face life and death issues.

"This generation will come of age after a period of worldwide conflict and will be responsible as adults for the transformation of society in the wake of dissolution of the Piscean Age. With such a task ahead of them, they will be concerned with the breakdown of old forms. Their intensity is unmatched in our experience and may even be somewhat frightening to their Pluto in Leo parents. Look to the House position [of Pluto] for where [your] child needs help." -p. 156, Child Astrology.

These children are sacred mirrors to our own issues with Scorpio’s sting and transformation. With this in mind here are some themes for this Scorpio energy. In Scorpio I am the One who Merges. 8th House, Scorpio is ruled by Mars, Pluto, The Transformer. I am the One who transforms through surrender. I accept death and rebirth as part of life.

Scorpio, the sign with the stinger, is adored and feared, desired and reviled. Why does this sign evoke such intense responses in many people, even those who know little about astrology? It is the season, I think. You know, Halloween, the Day of the Dead, falling leaves, shrinking days.

Scorpio is a reminder that things must die so that others may be born. It is a remembrance of our mortality and the impossibility of cheating death. It is sex and death, clinging lovers in the dance of life, the passion of connection that leads to conception, the urge to merge that brings babies, the natural rhythms blotted out by electric lights and medical technology. - Mountain Astrologer Magazine

The sign Scorpio represents:

• Empowerment- secrets, politics, psychology and charisma.
• Change- transformation, eliminating old baggage, change restoration and forgiveness
• Bonding- the urge to merge through sex, drugs, rock and roll; absorption, the power of merging, soul mates, deep emotional connection and mutual validation.
• Crisis- taking risks to gain power, compulsions, obsession, intense interactions and living on the edge aka Brittany Spears and Lindsey Lohan.
• Composting, taking garbage and making fertilizer- fuel for new growth. Think of Brittany and Lindsey in rehab.
• Self-mastery- good versus evil, strength, self-discipline, commitment, depth of character
• Financial Partnerships- loans, taxes, debts, grants, wills and inheritance, contracts and business.
• Misuse of Power- revenge, jealousy, harsh judgments, destructive urges, power struggles, abandonment, suspicion and guilt.
• Restoring health through elimination processes- Rectum, colon, bladder, PMS and menstruation, sexual diseases and the sexual organs- male and female.

At this time you may find yourself dealing with issues that are ready to be taken to the next level, you may see your children in the soup of it all as well, for we are all being asked to release and surrender (Scorpio) based on the way we think (Mercury).

Why am I talking about this today? Well these Indigo children with Scorpio in Pluto are being tested by the legacy we [the older generation] have created for them. As young adults they are headed out into the world- college, work, life. You may find them looking backwards, wanting things to stay the same. Yearning to come [or stay] ‘home’. I call this SoulCollage "Looking Back, moving forward".

How did you, as a parent, handle your Scorpio water? I am talking about the negative emotions- anger, guilt, shame, fear- did you simmer, explode, rage or depress it? Water in the body relates to emotions. Mercury is retrograding through Scorpio setting off your child’s Plutonian anger issues. Pluto and Mars rule Scorpio. Scorpio’s water gets all damned up and then starts to become toxic. The person looks for relief, there is an urge to merge, the task is to find relief by surrendering. There seems to be a lot of emotions ready for release, but with Mercury out to lunch and Mars about to go retrograde, normal tools are not working.

Chiron in Cancer [July 1988-August 1991] These children feel unsure of themselves in their families. This may stem from a painful relationship with the father, or perhaps another painful experience in their home. They intuitively know how to care for their family members and loved ones for their highest good. They are very sensitive to the emotional suffering of others and able to empathize with them. “We seek personal transformation, to overcome our separateness and become more than ourselves.”

Chiron is the inner teacher who shows you how you are wounded and then what to do to heal the wound. Cancer’s energy is psychic in nature, intuitive and emotional. These children are sensitive to the vibes in the air and can see straight into one another. You may hear one of them say “Quit talking trash about me!!!” These 17-19 year olds are born with Chiron at 10-20 degrees of Cancer.

10°-20° Chiron in Cancer brings a Scorpio impulse. Those children were born between July 13, 1989 through August 1, 1990 have Chiron in Cancer in their charts sitting at 10°-20° degrees are facing challenges relating to “What must I do to discipline and control myself because of the impact I have on others?”

In the sign Cancer you want emotional safety. Yet your child’s Chiron is also influenced by the sign Scorpio (called a decadent in astrology). With Mercury retrograding in Scorpio, the New Moon in Scorpio on November 9th and Mars on their Chiron their day-to-day coping skills are being tested- thus there is a lot of trash talking. The keyword is REACTION.

Gossip-If the mother [Moon] liked to disk dirt on her friends, now her child is dishing the dirt on her friends- it’s hurtful and unpleasant. If the mother didn’t deal with their depression, now the child is getting to feel their own depression. If the parent was angry the child is now facing issues their own issues with anger. This is a warning- Mars is moving slowly through the sign Cancer getting ready to go retrograde.

This Mars in Cancer energy is sitting on Dear Daughter and her friends Chiron. Chiron is the point in the chart where one is wounded, bringing up the collective wound of these children at a very early age and asking them to find the tools to heal their trauma. This energy is not leaving anytime soon. So look around and beam them love and appreciation for what these brave souls have come in to do. These children need love, not our judgment.

Mars goes retrograde on November 15 at 12 degrees of Cancer; we won’t be clear of this "Mom, Mars is sitting on my Chiron!" energy until mid-April of 2008. Hold on parents, it’s going to be a bumpy ride.

I’ll write about the Full Moon in Taurus on Wednesday.

¹⁾ Pluto in Scorpio Children (1984-1995) "feel for the entire human race, and its evolution - they seemingly are very prophetic in nature. Some have shut themselves off from very deep emotions, quite withdrawn and deeply introspective...These children were born old, and wise from early on, with a heavy burden on their collective shoulders. They were born, and in the next breath, they were adults....They will be battling a collective sense of futility, potentially very pessimistic. They know what is REAL. You cannot lie to them, or gloss over the truth, since they already know what truth is, warts and all....The consciousness of these children is clearly advanced, but right now, their bodies and emotions aren’t quite ready to receive the message from Pluto. There is immense power and energy that they will have, and are receiving, collectively. Some are already tuning in - others are in the acting out process and manifesting the darker nature of Pluto, in a destructive manner."

Submit your SoulCollage and win a Xyron 150!

The theme this month in your SoulCollage process is anything Aquarius:

"I am the One who..."
innovates
rebels
invents
my body electric
electrifies (anything blue)
Quantum Physics
aloofness
I stand up- this sign rules the ankles

Aquarius SoulCollages are due February 2, 2007.

This month we are working with the energies of the 11th House doorway, Aquarius and Uranus-the Innovator.

The community you serve through your unique gifts and talents. Remember the movie A Beautiful Mind...

What is the original thought you have come to share?

What is your soul longing to express?

This is the SoulCollage card that reflects your uniqueness. It may be related to a future self that you are birthing. An affirmation for Aquarius energy:

"I am unique.
I serve through my original gifts and talents.
I decree they manifest now."

A contest for those with a USA mailing address: Submit your SoulCollage for the Aquarius energies to win a Xyron create-a-sticker machine! Model 150.

If your name is picked out of the hat (sorry, US residents only), I will send you a Xyron Create-A-Sticker. This little guy automatically adds adhesive to those bits and pieces up to 1.5 inches wide. I love my sticker maker! The Xyron 150 comes with 20 feet of acid free permanent adhesive and gets rave reviews from users. Collages must be received by February 2, 2007.

Are you born between February 1955- February 1961? Then you are born with Chiron in Aquarius. You are or will be experiencing your Chiron Return at age 49/50.

CHIRON IN AQUARIUS: You may feel insecure within groups. You may also be sensitive to the wounds of humanity. It may be that you have suffered through friendships. You will have the ability to join groups with a cause, particularly those that heal humanity or teach spiritual ideals.

If you are stuck in this energy journey and work with the 17–The Star card in the tarot deck. Become the One who understands the emotions and can pour forth light and love. We are collectively integrating all the healing we encountered in our forties, all the life lessons are now ready to be shared in some tangible way.

In Aquarius we are called to serve our family and our community. This is the second half of our life.

This month is a sounding a call, to wake up and share the gifts we carry in our hearts. I wonder what your Aquarius SoulCollage card will look like!

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Enjoy the Gaian Tarot online– my thanks to Joanna for creating and inspiring me.